Fatherhood thoughts Vol.1

Looking at my few weeks old son does make me a bit mushy. This movie quote springs to mind.

I want to do something with him that's his first time. I'm going to look in his face when he tries ice cream. Every time he has ice cream for the rest of his life, he's going to see my fucking face.

---From the film "the place beyond the pines"

In the corner of your mind

it seems vague

life as it shapes

rising to occasion

without any concession

not the easiest job

makes mess of thoughts

hard to decide the "rights"

"wrongs" come with ease

running away isn't choice

suicide isn't really bright

you don't seek perfection

neither have selfish intentions

you visualize only darkness

unusual dread sets in

optimist inside you is no more

pessimist completes takeover

still a flame flickers somewhere

but is blown away soon

it may not seem as bad

but it keeps getting worse

you keep straight face

slap on a smile for heck

as you try to hide it

somewhere in the corner of your mind