I am back. I am back. I am back.
But does anyone read blogs anymore?
But then I never really did it because someone read it.
I would just post what came to my mind.
Usual way of doing things could be to list out whats going on with my life. But then there is Facebook/Instagram for that.
I cant believe how much I have changed since I stated writing this blog.
But none of these changes are skin deep, probably.
Maybe its evolution. But one thing has not changed.
I still feel lonely, even if surrounded by people.
Maybe it stems from my insecurity that people misunderstand me or don't understand me at all.
Sounds like teen post but then this is what maybe is called, midlife crisis.
Maybe I just like using this label to hide something else.
But I am yet to find it, the reason for this conflict in my mind.
Health and Wealth are my primary concerns and they are correlated to two important person of my life who depend on me and possibly care about me. My wife and my kid.
Other family members and friends have their own troubles and I am in condition to help them and so I distance myself. Maybe it makes me a sociopath or not. I dont really know.
But I miss my sister a lot. Maybe you are reading this, Sameeta.
I am not a vocal person, unless probed a lot.
But I am not interested in going too deep into my thoughts today.
So health/wealth I need to take of these two, especially my off work interests needs both.
Cycling and Running.
I call myself NoonRunner because that was the time I have run most. But I am not a good runner, I am more like a average runner. Yes I have completed 1 FM and 1 50kms Ultra. But I also have a DNF at 50kms Trail Ultra.
Maybe that's the weight hanging on my head. And I made a promise to myself that I will go back to Matheran stronger and complete a run of 50 kms.
I want to talk a lot about running but I did that recently on another forum.
But no way I am talking about cycling till I sort out what type of cycling I like to do and I am good at too.
Well thats all for now, I am charged up to write more now.
Maybe soon I will have more posts.
But does anyone read blogs anymore?
But then I never really did it because someone read it.
I would just post what came to my mind.
Usual way of doing things could be to list out whats going on with my life. But then there is Facebook/Instagram for that.
I cant believe how much I have changed since I stated writing this blog.
But none of these changes are skin deep, probably.
Maybe its evolution. But one thing has not changed.
I still feel lonely, even if surrounded by people.
Maybe it stems from my insecurity that people misunderstand me or don't understand me at all.
Sounds like teen post but then this is what maybe is called, midlife crisis.
Maybe I just like using this label to hide something else.
But I am yet to find it, the reason for this conflict in my mind.
Health and Wealth are my primary concerns and they are correlated to two important person of my life who depend on me and possibly care about me. My wife and my kid.
Other family members and friends have their own troubles and I am in condition to help them and so I distance myself. Maybe it makes me a sociopath or not. I dont really know.
But I miss my sister a lot. Maybe you are reading this, Sameeta.
I am not a vocal person, unless probed a lot.
But I am not interested in going too deep into my thoughts today.
So health/wealth I need to take of these two, especially my off work interests needs both.
Cycling and Running.
I call myself NoonRunner because that was the time I have run most. But I am not a good runner, I am more like a average runner. Yes I have completed 1 FM and 1 50kms Ultra. But I also have a DNF at 50kms Trail Ultra.
Maybe that's the weight hanging on my head. And I made a promise to myself that I will go back to Matheran stronger and complete a run of 50 kms.
I want to talk a lot about running but I did that recently on another forum.
But no way I am talking about cycling till I sort out what type of cycling I like to do and I am good at too.
Well thats all for now, I am charged up to write more now.
Maybe soon I will have more posts.
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