life

can it really help not sure about it

some say it heals bit by bit

the aching of heart is softened

longing of mind is shortened

does a dream really is the answer

to mind that is really fragile

chaos of colliding thoughts

trouble my hapless mind

heart weighs in its own agenda

putting my body through painful grind

had to drag me feet to the bed

nothing happens even with eyes closed

staring at meaningless shadows with despair

hoping something would bring an end

maybe I am dreaming it yet not believing

maybe its so lucid whatever I am dreaming

feels so vivid so real that it hurts

maybe someone can wake me up with nudge

is there a totem like they said in stories

that helps us tell apart whats unreal

I close my eyes, touch my cheeks

tears are still there and my heart beats weak

yes I am still living not dreaming

the nightmare that I call my life